Raspberry Road

This is how my life feels lately. I’m crying with a full, sad heart as I look at this pic sent on the missionary moms chat today. That cute sheep!? I miss Ella. (She’s married and moved out) I miss her spirit- she is my peace and my party. But I’m not much good anyway.… Continue reading

I’m sad. Heavy inside. It hurts. My heart hurts. I’m tired. So tired all day long. Oh it’s hard. I have lots to do. Lots I really really want to do. I’m in the middle of really big events. That won’t happen again. and some days I can’t do it. I just can’t. It’s too… Continue reading

May 30, 2026 Life is hard right now. I sure say that a lot.. Lots of good awesome wonderful things and lots of hard stressful heavy things. I hate it happening all at the same time. And I don’t feel well. Physically. Mentally… blah blah. I’m tired. I can’t do this. I want to do… Continue reading

Saturday April 25,2026 I’m trying to go to the temple every week right now in preparation for girls camp, Ella’s wedding, Ren and Ella receiving their Endowments, Ren going on a mission~ all the things. It’s a lot. Overwhelming and stressful. and I want to enjoy it. Truly enjoy it and be present, and guided… Continue reading

April 24, 2026 Another Friday night lacrosse game! Playing Lone Peak at home. I love lacrosse nights! I love sitting in the stands with all our friends and family. And we all watch the game. We cheer for Ren. I love it so much. I am the mom. These are my kids. I watch Ren… Continue reading

Today I was thinking. My kids have been to a lot of schools. We have had significant moves. We’ve been all over~ I started calculating.. Cole went to four elementary schools! one middle school and one high school. (Walker Butte elementary, Eduprize elementary, Bluffdale elementary, Eaglecrest Elementary, Lehi Jr High, Skyridge high school.) Eric went… Continue reading

Cute Ella and Aiden drove to California this weekend to get their marriage license. Since they are getting married in California, they need a license from California. So they took a quick trip. The first closest place that did licenses was the tiny town of Susanville. So fun!! Continue reading

Depression days are so hard. Thank goodness I don’t have them more than I do. But I have them often. Multiple days a month. I spend many days in bed. I don’t want to be there. I feel dumb. I feel like it’s such a waste of time. I desire to do things and get… Continue reading

March 27, 2026 I was in Jeni’s car with her and her kids, driving home from St George. We were dropping off Blake at his house because he came with us. Kalli got a call and it was Ren telling her to have me check my phone. He had tried to call me but my… Continue reading

Even though life is so dang hard right now, so suffocating and frightening- I get to sit on this beautiful balcony right off my bedroom and enjoy the incredible view. I feel so lucky. It’s beautiful. The sun shining on my face, the birds singing and the squirrels running through the trees. There are so… Continue reading